It's Okay to Not Know

If there's one thing I've been learning throughout this whole process of preparing for college this fall, it's that it's okay to not know. It's okay to not have everything figured out, to not have it all together.

As someone who likes to have everything planned out and know what I'm getting myself into, this has been such a challenging thing for me to learn. So how does this tie in with my college prepping for this fall? Well, deciding what to major in has been a bit of a struggle for me (as I'm sure you know by now, if you've read my other posts!). I've been putting all of this unnecessary pressure on myself to figure out right now what I want to study. Sometimes, I'll feel confident about what I plan to major in, but give it a few days, and that assurance will waver, leaving me stressed and scrambling to find the degree that seems right for me.

Because the truth is, I don't know what I want to do yet. And as much as my perfectionist-self dislikes the idea, that's 100% okay! I'm only starting my first semester of college, taking your average Gen-Ed classes, so of course it's totally unnecessary to stress out and overthink about what I'm going to major in. Because truly, I do have plenty of time to decide.

So the moral of the story is this: even though we, as imperfect humans, might not know what to do most of the time, God always, always does, and I find that far more comforting! We don't have to figure everything out on our own; in fact, we can't figure everything out on our own. But we can take heart in the truth that God has every tiny detail of our life figured out, and He'll reveal His wonderful plans for us in His perfect timing.

By no means have I mastered all this. I'm still taking baby steps as God is teaching me to let go of the feeling that I need to have it all together, and instead just trust in Him. Trust and believe that He knows all things, and that I don't need to worry so much about what I'm going to do four years from now when I graduate college. Because He's going to be with me every step of the way, leading me and guiding me!

Here are a few verses that I'm going to try to keep in mind in order to help me with this. Maybe you could use them, too! :)

"We do not know what to do, but our eyes are fixed on you." - 1 Chronicles 20:12 ESV

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths." - Proverbs 3:5-6

"The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps." Proverbs 16:9

The Bible always says it best, doesn't it? :)

Much love,

Molly <3

P.S. I move away to college in just 29 days, y'all--29 days! How crazy and scary and exciting is that? (Okay, I'm only moving about 40 minutes away or so, but still.) I'm really looking forward to this new journey ahead of me, and in the meantime, I'm going to try to soak up and embrace every precious moment at home before I leave. :)

P.P.S. I'm almost done reading The Return of the King, and oh my goodness, I just read the chapter in which Eowyn and Faramir meet and fall in love. GAH, they are just so sweet and perfect together. I think Faramir would have to be one of absolute favorite LotR characters, along with Eowyn. They're both absolutely amazing characters. (Okay, enough rambling about this topic for now; I'm sure I'll be doing a post about the series once I finish it, and I can share all my thoughts about it with you then!)